So with the gradual decline of professional level orchestras
here in the states I have been thinking a lot about what I’m going to do with
my life after I get my masters and possibly even my doctoral degrees. The main
option seems to be trying to find one of the coveted jobs at a good
college/university, teaching a studio, and forming an ensemble with some of my
colleagues while hopefully being able to perform in a good symphony in the
area. However, I find this option to leave too much to chance, just as the idea
of auditioning for countless struggling orchestras and symphonies leaves me
feeling anxious and out of control of my future.
Being a music performance major by definition leaves the
future open ended and uncertain: one doesn’t necessarily have the goal of
teaching in mind, but one also can’t be completely confident in the possibility
of landing a job desired by countless others. Especially as a flutist where the
possible jobs in each orchestra are only two—unless if you are also quite proficient
on the piccolo, in which case the job options are three—and even then one has
to be in the right place at the right time to even get an audition, much less a
callback and a job offer.
So what does this mean? Did I simply pick the completely
wrong field? Well, probably. But! I’m not in a place right now where I can just
drop music and find a “real job,” like various well-meaning (and some
not-so-well-meaning) people have advised. Instead I’m going to do what I think
I need to do to secure a job in the future: I simply need to be the best player
I can be in all aspects of the flute. That means working hard orchestral-ly (something
that I’ve been trained to do for the last four years), as well as forming
chamber ensembles, performing new music, different and strange music, and all
sorts of genres which are suited for the flute—maybe even some that aren’t well
suited for the flute. That means one thing for me right now: jazz.
Not only is jazz a wonderful thing to listen to, but also it
has such a rich history and so many possibilities for the future. Obe has a “highlights
of the jazz story in USA” poster in our living room and it’s one of those
things where so much has happened and is happening now that one can’t help but
want to hop on the bandwagon and see what the big deal is. The groove, the
swing, jamming, improvisation; these are all things that are embodied in the
pursuit of jazz.
Jazz is also slightly terrifying. Where does a flute fit in
this world? Especially a flute that has been trained orchestrally—sure I can
play most things put in front of me, but what will I do when I’m asked to play
what’s inside of me, fitting it into what’s around me? Intense.
It’s only fitting that I’m writing my thesis paper on
improvisation and the effects on creativity and performance (both in and out of
the musical world) improv has on students. If I didn’t explore improvisation
more in depth then I would have absolutely no credibility on the subject.
So jazz it is.
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